Raw

"One of the most daring and unfiltered books to emerge from the Christian world."

Raw is not a success story. There is no polished testimony here. No triumphant ending tied neatly together with a hallelujah. No attempt to convince you that David de Vos has figured everything out. For years, David was one of the most sought-after Christian speakers in the Netherlands and beyond. He traveled the world, shared his faith face-to-face with more than a million people, and built the kind of ministry many would consider extraordinarily successful. Then everything began to unravel.

The certainty he had once lived with disappeared. The faith that had seemed unshakable was tested. The God he had preached about so confidently suddenly felt much harder to find. Raw tells the story of the road that followed. It is a story shaped by a difficult childhood, bullying, relentless work, unanswered prayers, depression, physical pain, doubt, disappointment, and long stretches in which David simply did not know what to believe anymore. But this is not only a book about falling apart. It is also about what happens when you stop pretending.

David writes openly about the Christian world that formed him, the preachers he once admired, the scandals that shattered reputations, and the culture that too often rewards appearance over honesty. He does not spare his former heroes, but neither does he spare himself.

Along the way, Raw offers practical insights for anyone trying to build a healthier, freer, more meaningful life. Whether you are Christian, Muslim, Jewish, atheist, or simply trying to make sense of your own story, David invites you to take what helps, wrestle with what challenges you, and think for yourself.

He does not write because he has all the answers. He writes because he finally stopped pretending that he did. Raw is an honest account of losing certainty, confronting yourself, and discovering that sometimes the way forward begins when you are willing to admit that you no longer know the way.

Raw is not a story about arriving. It is about searching. There is no glitter, no easy testimony, and no polished version of David de Vos at the end of it. Instead, David shares what he has learned through success, collapse, doubt, pain, and rebuilding, along with practical tools that can help you examine your own life. Whatever you believe, this book does not ask you to follow David. It invites you to think, question, and take responsibility for your own journey.